About Him!

I found out he is not loyal to me.....
What he can do is just sweet talk to the GIRLS espeacially my best friend.....
I saw my best friend message......
What i can do is just wait for him =(
I dont wanna hear anything from him T.T
He always say he used that ' I LOVE YOU ' sentences just to comfort her.....
He always sweet talk to the girls......
He told me his father is a sweet talker........
Cant he just change his stupid fucking altitude????
I know im not his girlfriend.............
I dont have the right to stop him from sweet talking to the GIRLS........
Im just a love failuer....... as my tears rolled down my cheek
Im just a lonely girl..................
Im nothing to him.......... * crying *
I held dc hands is just because i hope he will do it to me.........
I didnt mean to hurt him........
But i think he didnt get hurt by me.... Not even a little bit.........
Cuz i still cant trust him that he love me...................
He always say he wanna test me whether i really love him............
I wanna tell him that I REALLY LOVE HIM...... I LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYONE...........
He promise me he wont sweet talk to my best friend....... i hope he wont break his promise.....
My best friend promise me she wont flirt with him.....................
What if one day, he leave me alone????
What if one day he break his promise????
What if one day, he fell for my best friend????
What if one day, my best friend break her promise????
Do i still have the guts to talk to my best friend and him????
DO I?????
Well, I guess its time for me to start my new love......... But can i really do that????
I still cant feel that he really love me.............
Can he prove to me that he really love me????
I think even i start a new love, i still cant forget about him cuz he is the 1st person who make me fell for him so deeply and cry so badly............
I need him so badly.............
But yet, he keep on hurting me................
The ever single words he say to my best friend is hurting me.................... * wiping my tears *
I promise myself that im not gonna give up on him.....
But what if he keep on hurting me????

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