A New Happy Life Have Just Started

Wow......
Today is the most HYPER day for me....................
I damn hyper..................
I went to Red Box with siwei, lerynne, cecilia and xiaoyan...............
We celebrate lerynne bday..............
me, cecilia, xiaoyan, dylan and siwei bought for lerynne a EXPENSIVE watch ......... ( City Chain )
It cost us RM 300++..................
Omg............
Damn expensive...............
But since lerynne is our best friend.........................
Its worth it........... XD
We sing many songs....................
If wanna know wad we sing.....................
Just go to siwei blog...................
I lazy to list out adi................ XD
Today is the most happy day................. =)
I tot i dont dare to sing in front of my friends...............
But today, i did it.............
I finally have the guts to sing in front of everybody.............
Im so happy..........
I hope after test, i can go to Red Box with siwei, lerynne, cecilia and xiaoyan again.......... XD

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DAMN PISS OFF!

Grrrrrrrr.....................
My Cousin is making me very angry at him..................
He read my blog then suan liao larh............
Somemore wanna tell my mum.................
Damn fucking piss................
Now.........
My mum keep on nagging at me liao............
I GUESS MY COUSIN WILL BE VERYYYYYYYYYY HAPPY...... HMM?????????
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...............................
THIS IS MY BLOG...........
I WANNA POST WAD IS MY FREEDOM..........
NOBODY CAN STOP ME...................
IM NOT GONNA DELETE THE PREVIOUS POST...................
ITS TRUE................
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG.............
I DIDNT EVEN KILL PPL...............................
I JUST SCOLD HER ONI MAH................
IT DOESNT MEAN WAD...........................
PLUS, WE NOW ASO BE BACK BEST FRIENDS ADI LORH..........................
ALL BECAUSE OF MY COUSINS...................................
THIS IS MY STUFF.............
I DUNWAN TO ELT MY MUM KNOW AND YET HE GO TELL MY MUM....................
ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I DUNWAN TO HATE HIM AND DUNWAN TO SCOLD HIM.............................

To my cousin :
If u think u did correct that u told my mum abt the blog.............
your're wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u'r making me hate u...............
i know i shouldnt hate u cuz u'r my cousin..................
but please dont make me hate you!!!!!!!!
i hate your stupid attitude..............
i love that boy so wad????
its none of ur business..................
Im not crazy of BOYS u know?????
u know the ever single word u said to my mum IS HURTING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u dunno my feelings.....................
If u dunno my feelings then dont hurt me...................
u think hurting ppl is fun???????
u wanna try kena ppl hurt?????
I know my blog is emo so wad????
Its the only way i could release out my anger and feelings...........
Like this aso cannot izzit????
I hope u cud change ur attitude................
That time, i really feel like slapping u or scold u........
but i cant..........
i know ah yi and my mum sure whack me like hell..............
The only thing i cud do is CRY!!!!!!!!!!!
I cried u aso dunno larh!!!!!!!!!!!
HMPH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Tagged by the stupid Hann Jian...... XP

1. What is the relationship of you and him?
Err......... Pet Brother & pet sister..... i think?


2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him.
Err......... Pervert( hope he dont see this XD ), Kind, Funny, Friendly, LCLY( i think? )


3. The most memorable things she/he had done for you.
Err........ DUNNO! XP


4. The most memorable things she/he have said to you
Pervert Ann T.T ( i know wad u guys thinking abt me, but im not pervert at all...... and i dun care wad u'r think....)


5. If she/he become your lover, you will.
OMG, CANT IMAGINE!!!!!!!!! XD


6. If he become your enemy, you will.
Err....... i will punch him?


7. If she/he become your lover, he has to improve on.
Err.......... dunno but i know his basketball skill is kinda good?


8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is.
Call me PERVERT GIRL!!!!!!!!!


9. The most desirable thing to do on her/him is?
Zzz............ dunno!


10. The overall impression of he is.
Err........ Dunno!


11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Errr.......... crazy girl? fucker? ugly girl?


12. The character of you for yourself is?
Dunno!


13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Too hyper!!!! XD


14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
Dunno worh!!!! =)


15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
Err......... dunno wad to say!!!


Ten people to tag :
~ Siwei
~ Xiaoyan
~ Lerynne
~ Benji
~ Peiming
~ Joyce
~ Shaun
~ Hann Jian
~ Xiong Wei
~ Madeleine


Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
Dylan Ong........... swt


Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Female...... ( Leng Lui )


If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
Err...... i dunno..... maybe?


How about no. 5 and 8?
OMG........ Err..... dunno and they dun even know each other larh! XP


What is no. 1 studying about?
Nothing?


Is no. 4 single?
YES!!!!!


Say something about no. 6
Hmm.......... she is tall..... kind.... and...... DUNNO adi! haha! i seldom talk to her.... XP

Best Friends Foreva!! Nothing could buy Friendship!

Nothing could buy us ~ BEST FRIENDS FOREVA......

Money cant buy Friendship!!! =)

Appreciate ur friendship........ XP

Forgive My Best Friends........ =)

I forgive my best friend.........

I have to forgive her bcz she is my best friend.........

She is on the same ship with me........... =)

Siwei is right..................

We have to Forgive And Forget........ XP

I will appreciate my Friendship from now on......... =)

About Relationship.........

I dont want to think about it first....................

FRENZ FOREVA!!!!

Tagged by Peiming

1. What did you do for the last few mins?
~ Chatting with someone i love.......

2. What will you do if you are gonna die?
Of cuz im not crying~~ Im going to spent my last day or last month or last hour or last minute with the person i love.........

3. What will you say if someone says "i love you" to you?
Err........ kidding??

4. What will you say/do if you are 30 and you haven have your first kiss?
I dont know how to answer this question..... XP

5. What will you do if your mom nags at you TOO often?
Err........ nag her back??

6. What will you say if someone says something 3 times continuously?
Err..... ' i know, i know...... so shut up '?? / ' i know, u'r so irritating '?? XD

7. Your boyfriend says "Honey, I wanna break up." What will you do?
Ewwwwww............... Honey?? sounds disgusting.......... eeee yerrr........ i will say ' break up then break up lorh, i dun give a fucking damn anyway....... ' XP

I dunwan to quit blog... T.T

I dunwan to quit blog...... Cuz i was so bored without blog...... I can put out all my anger here XD...... So, i guess i dun have to quit blog bcz of HIM!!! hehe!

QUIT BLOG!!!!

Im quitting blog........
Maybe i will come back here and blog sometimes........
But not everyday or always............
I told someone that i will stop blogging about him..............
I have to stop blogging now...........

BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Do i still have to heart-broken????

Do i have to continue heart-broken-ing????
I still very sad..........
Ytd, he comfort me........
But i still feel very sad....... =(
I cant even smile.............. X=)
Why my mood suddenly DOWN so much????
WHY????
Its weird..................
I didnt emo like that before..................
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...............
I tried to laugh or smile but still cant................
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............................
Im going to go crazy just bcz of him larh.....................
Send me to mental problem hospital, someone.................... ( jkjk )
I have nothing to do now..............................
I think what i should do now is waiting for him or giving up on him..............
So, whoever.......... Please give me some advice.................................
PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I guess they will say, give up on him............................ * sigh *
So, i have nothing to post now....................
Cuz i dont have any anger or feelings to release out..........................
LOL.............................................
You can say that im lame but sometimes at sku, im kinda hyper........
I mean...... Not kinda hyper..... Is hyper like shit...................
Cuz its fun espeacially my friends...................
They always make me laugh and smile................... =D / =)
Maybe im not suit for love.........................
Maybe my friends and family could give me happiness but not LOVE!!!!!!!!!!
well..................
Good that LOVE is not suit for me............................

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2nd day Heart Broken-ing........

He apologized to me..............
I dunwan to accept his apologize.................
I know if i accept his apologize and forgive him.........
I will be more suffering.............
Cuz if he have new gf.............
He will definitely tell me...............
I dunwan to know anything abt him anymore............
I already heart broken.............
Nobody can heal my heart..............
I have to fix it............
But i dun know how to................
I dunwan to stop talking abt him here...........
Bcz if i stop talking abt him...............
I have to keep it in my heart................
I cant say it out............
And i will be more suffering and cry.....................
i..........
I really wanna cry..........
And kill myself........................
Im so stupid................
Bcz i can even cry bcz of him.................
I seldom cry bcz of boys..........
I mean i didnt cry bcz of boys b4.................
And yet he is the 1st person who hurt me so badly n make me so sad................
I..........................................
I still havent give up yet..............
Bcz i dunwan to.............
I still love him very much.............
I cant force myself not to love me bcz i know it will be very suffering for me.....................
Anyone can help me????
Advice me????
Help me to heal my heart????
I have many problem.............
Everyone does................. i know...........
My friendship is sinking..............
My love has over.............
My studies is very poor now................
All the problem comes in the same time....................
What should i do????
WHAT SHOULD I DO????????

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1st day Heart Broken-ing.............

Well, I heart broken again........
This time, i get hurt by a standard 6 boy..........
Sorry, i cant tell u who is he..........
Its hurt very much...............
Haiz.............
Im the one who make the decision and yet im the one who get hurt.............
What is the fucking problem with me????
I know i love him very much and i cant let go of him and why i have to make this decision????
And why cant he change his fucking altitude bcz of me????
He always say he love me................
But he cant change his altitude because of me.................
Its prove that he dont even like me........ Not even love...................
I always think..............
What can he do for me????
Say sweet stuff to the girls is done something very excellent for me????
Make my friendship sink is done something very amazing for me????
What he can do is just say' i love boobies or pussy or wadeva sexual stuff '.................
I want him to think.................
What he can do for me????
Say still have feelings for me....................
Say after i make the decision, wont go to trip...................
Why the god have to punish me using my love????
Is that fun playing ard with me????
I wan to try too.............
Maybe i always dump boys so the god want to punish me like this.....................
I dont want to think anything about this love................
Cuz its too suffering and i dont want to know.........................
Well............
I have to stop loving anyone..................
From now on, i have to care about my friendship and my studies.................
I dont have time to care abt my relationship.............
I dont care if my relationship is sinking or over liao..................
I have to be the happy girl again!!!!!!
I HAVE TO!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Tagged by peiming

3 Golden Rules. state 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself. The 10 people I tag are to then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts..

1. I will be very crazy if im hyper or happy. XP

2. Sometimes, i will suddenly say i love you to someone.... hehe.....

3. I love to bit my lips................ lol............

4. Cry easily whenever watch drama or kena hurts by boys............

5. I cant think

6. I cant think

7. I can think

8. I have no idea

9. I have no idea

10. I have no idea

11. I have no idea

12. Dunno

13. Dunno

14. Dunno

15. Dunno

About Him!

I dont know what to do now.............
He keep on asking me to love another guys....................
Is there anyone i can love beside him????
What is love to me????
Izzit just a game????
Is the god playing around with me????
It's so cruel to me.............
He did something that hurt me very badly.................
I love him, I need him and yet he hurt me so badly...........................
I dont know what i can do now..............
I get hurt soo soo soo soo soo soo soo badly now.................
I know he fell for my best friend so he give excuses that he is a sweet talker and dont suit me......
U know, Its the most cruel thing u could do it to a girl just to dump or ditch her......................
So, boys! Dont even use these words on girls u love.........................
It will hurt her so badly.....
Maybe she could even die bcz of you....................
Well, i guess i have to forget about him since he say he like c...............
i know its not a CHICKEN larh....................................
Always use her to make me jealous...................................
If like that, why dont just FUCK her????
Keep on fucking her larh...... Dont stop man.......................
Fuck her fuck until go hospital larh, YOU BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do he have to do that to me????
And do she have to do that to me????
Flirting with the boy i love????
If she didnt told him she jealous, he wouldn't have promise her that!!!!!!!!!
What is the fucking problem with you, FUCKING BITCH??????????????????????????
U know i love him very much and yet u want him to promise you that..............................
I cant believe that i have such a best friend like HER!!!!!
I cant believe that he promise her that....................
I cant believe the god present me with this type of friend..................
I cant believe she make him say those stuff.........................
I CANT BELIEVE MY EYES........ WHAT I SAW IS ACTUALLY REAL....................
IT'S TOO LATE TO APOLOGIZE, FUCKING BITCH!!!!!!
I WONT FORGIVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE...................
EVEN UNTIL THE DAY I DIE, I WILL STILL CURSING YOU!!!!!!!!!
ALL THE BOYS I LIKE, U HAVE TO KNOW THEM................
DO U THINK U'R SO CLEVER OR PRETTY?????????????
DREAM ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u'r not a pretty girl at all..................
u'r just an ordinary girl......................
I dont know why i have to be so cruel and mean...........
Izzit because of he and she????
WHY YOU 2 HAVE TO DO THAT TO ME????
WHY???????????????????????
I just wanna know why????
Why he have to do that to me????
I know he dont wanna hear or know anything.................
But i dont want to........................
If his answer is not what i want, i guess maybe i will cry like shit......................
Everybody ask me whether he is my bf...................
I have to say no because it's true that he is not mine................
I have no right to control him...................
But....................
If he really like her.................
Cant he just tell me that he like her??????
What is the fucking problem with me????
Why i have to sad just because of him????
I tried to cut myself but its useless...........
Even i cut myself...................
It wont heal my heart......................
Nobody could!!!!!!!!!!

GOD, PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO..................... PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!
I dont know what should i do now.......
Cry????
Die????
Cut myself????
Sad Foreva????
Dont talk to him????
Forgive my best friend????
Always emo????

Im sick of knowing all those...............................
I dont wanna know anything about my love.....................
I dont wanna find another guy anymore....................
I want to study but i cant......................
Izzit bcz he cant get out of my mind????
Im not gonna give up so easily!!!!!!!!!!
And i wont forgive her too..........................
She hurt me too badly..............

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About Him!

I found out he is not loyal to me.....
What he can do is just sweet talk to the GIRLS espeacially my best friend.....
I saw my best friend message......
What i can do is just wait for him =(
I dont wanna hear anything from him T.T
He always say he used that ' I LOVE YOU ' sentences just to comfort her.....
He always sweet talk to the girls......
He told me his father is a sweet talker........
Cant he just change his stupid fucking altitude????
I know im not his girlfriend.............
I dont have the right to stop him from sweet talking to the GIRLS........
Im just a love failuer....... as my tears rolled down my cheek
Im just a lonely girl..................
Im nothing to him.......... * crying *
I held dc hands is just because i hope he will do it to me.........
I didnt mean to hurt him........
But i think he didnt get hurt by me.... Not even a little bit.........
Cuz i still cant trust him that he love me...................
He always say he wanna test me whether i really love him............
I wanna tell him that I REALLY LOVE HIM...... I LOVE HIM MORE THAN ANYONE...........
He promise me he wont sweet talk to my best friend....... i hope he wont break his promise.....
My best friend promise me she wont flirt with him.....................
What if one day, he leave me alone????
What if one day he break his promise????
What if one day, he fell for my best friend????
What if one day, my best friend break her promise????
Do i still have the guts to talk to my best friend and him????
DO I?????
Well, I guess its time for me to start my new love......... But can i really do that????
I still cant feel that he really love me.............
Can he prove to me that he really love me????
I think even i start a new love, i still cant forget about him cuz he is the 1st person who make me fell for him so deeply and cry so badly............
I need him so badly.............
But yet, he keep on hurting me................
The ever single words he say to my best friend is hurting me.................... * wiping my tears *
I promise myself that im not gonna give up on him.....
But what if he keep on hurting me????

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Lantern Festival!

Lol........ kena spray until very cham........ but cecilia more cham............. Damn funny.... LMFAO...... Nothing to say......... hehe......... Saw him, my whole face red..... i think im blushing...... GRRRRRRRR........ but luckily nobody see it..... if not, i sure mati........

Thursday, 11.09.2008

Haiz........ MSN got problem........................ shit larh............. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR....................................... * yawning * I wanna sleep but its too early for me to sleep larh...... T.T Miss *** but he didnt online or reply my message...... T.T maybe UPSR over adi, he go out gua.................... T.T Nothing to post abt........ Haiz......... Boring Life...... T.T

Piss Off day

Today is a fucking piss off day for me........... she know that i like ***, but she still wanna like him........ What the fuck is her problem............... diu her la........... That fucking ci bai bitch............... I damn piss off when *** told her the SWEET SENTENCES.......... fine.... i can say that IM JEALOUS...... but its nature for me to jealous cuz i like him.......... isnt it too much for her??????????? What wrong with her?????????? WHAT IS THE FUCKING PROBLEM WITH HER????????????? DIU HER LAO MOU LA....................... I DAMN FUCKING HATE HER NOW.............. SRY NO CURE LA, U BITCH............................... THE TRUTH IS I HATE U SO DAMN MUCH NOW............. ACTUALLY, I THINK OF FORGIVING U......... BUT U R THE ONE WHO KEEP ON MAKING ME HATE YOU......... SO, ITS NOT MY FAULT.......... ITS URS, U BITCH..................................

Sunday, 7.9.2008

I went to Taman Megah badminton court with jez, shaun, dc and xw..... At first, they ditch me T.T...... Damn sad........ T.T But after that, dc keep on teman me played badminton..... Then, i played with jez........ His hair cut damn funny...... and his badminton skill ok ok lorh...... he played badminton damn funny weih......... and he damn cute............. AND........... SHIT LA......... I OWN HIM ONE KISS.............. SEI LORH............... haizz...... my badminton skill very poor liao..... feel like dying......... T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T................................. Finally update my blog..... YAY!!!! XP...... I stoped talking about him bcz i dont want to............ =D I want to be hapy, i dont wan to suffering foreva......... =)

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6.9.2008 ~ Saturday

Haiz...... I damn sienz........... My head damn pain.......... ytd slept at 3 something, today woke up at 2 something................ sei lorh.......... I dont want to become panda lerh.................. haiz................ I muz go exercise liao............. I dont wanna become fatty girl......... but luckily, im not fat!!!!!!! pheww................... Haiz........ Today will be a sien day for me......... Goodbye =(

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Forget about him............................

I finally forget about him liao............... As i said, i need 1 year or 6 months to forget him........ But dont know why, i didnt think of him anymore.................. Im hapi that i forget about him........... so i can relax now............. phew............................... =) I wont get hurt by anybody anymore.............. i dont want to get hurt so badly................... =D YAY!!!!!!!!!1 But still got some problems......... Now, friendship problems.......... the two sohais.............. haiz................... i dont give a damn liao........... IM TOTALLY DISSAPOINTED AT THEM.................................. I FEEL SO SAD WHEN I KNOW SHE ISNT CARE FOR ME........ AND BCZ OF LAZY, SHE DONT ACCOMPANY ME........... MY SIS IS RIGHT........... IN THIS WORLD, THERE'S NO TRUE FRIENDS......................... i FINALLY KNOW THAT............................. HAIZZZZZZZZZ.........................