Always There

Oh gosh
Im gonna die in house NOW Its killing me T.T
Im actually forgotten to take my sky photo T.T

Wish i could die now

ARHHHHHH~~~~~

Mummy, let me go out larh!!!!!! T.T

Weeeeee~

tomoro going badminton?

i guess so? XP

Okie~~

Im so bored and im actually being a CAMWHORE~ T.T

Dont kill me guys~~~~ T.T

Wish cecilia will be around when my bday arrive =(

She going back to hometown

Cant celebrate with her liao

14 DAYS TO GO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

MY BDAY~~~~

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! XP

WEEEEEEEE~~~~~~~~

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The Sky

Hmmm...............

Today was a sucks day for me

I really cant imagine how bored i was

Today, i added too many boys in my contact lists

I added for fun actually

So, 2 of them accepted my buddy request

1 of them was playing around with me

Another 1 said will be online in the night

Its kinda bored and not fun at all

Today, i captured a photo of the sky

Isnt it great?

hahahahahha

Im so happy when im capturing this photo

heeeee~

I will take again TOMORO XD

Anyway, im totally crazy of DBSK

They're sooooo famous and cute

They're so adorable

LOL

Espeacially XIAH JUNSU

Nothing to blog about....

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Ridiculous?

Dont know since when i started to love SKY sooooo much
Whenever i look up onto the sky, i will surely smile.....

When rainy day, you're crying me
When sunset, you're embarresing
When you'r blue, you're looking down at me
Night, you're warmly hugging me

I love you so much...
Dont know when will i find my true love?
I always wanna meet my true love

Love him
Care him
Hug him
Comfort him when he's sad

No matter what, i will still love the blue sky....
It wont change...

P/S : I love SNOW too... XD

Im Sorry, I Love You

What is the fucking problem with ME?!?!?!?!?!?!

I mean why am i angry at myself?

Why am i crying all the times?

Why cant i just be normal as usual?

I shud give up werd

I ALREADY gave up

And why am i still so sad and angry?

I hate MYSELF so much!!!

I feel like KILLING myself!!!!!!

Why cant i just DISSAPEAR in this world?

Why my life have to be so emo when i dont even want myself to be?!?!?!?

Is this what i get?

If i know it will happen, i wouldnt have borned!!!!!

Im very thankful that God give me a chance to look at this wonderful world

But its not what i want

This world gives me suffer, pain, tears but not joy

why cant i just be myself?

Why i have to use ACT?

Why is my tears keep on rolling down?

There's so many questions in my heart

I hope someone cud gives me all the answer

My sadness are more than my happiness

My ******** is killing me!!!!

FUCK!!!!!!

I shouldnt be like that....

I shud be back MYSELF

Yea, be back myself

Oh Gosh

Im gonna go crazy anytime

Im gonna bust anytime

IM SO SELFISH!!!!

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Spirit Of Love

Today, i went to badminton with siwei, cecilia, dc, shaun, jezzey, claire and yee lee
And i saw Kah Kent by accident
Well, cecilia is the one who saw him first........
What cud i say?
AND cecilia told me that jezzey kissed her cheek
So what?
I mean i dont give a fucking damn about it okie?!?!?!?!?!
But why do i care so much?
Maybe he's my ex so i kinda jealous but impossible werd.......
I hate him so much.....
I mean i dont really like his pervert attitude.....
And i lost my dignity bcz of him?
Omg.....
I cant really believe it......
And jezzey told me that HE ( another boy ) still like me?
Jez say he loves me like crazy? ( i dont think so )
I dont really believe it
I cant even believe or serious to love now
Maybe i can say that i dont have the mood to start a new relationship anymore

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Tagged by Madeleine

Instructions:Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italicize the statements that you wish were true.
Leave the fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.
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I’m 170cm tall.
I don’t know what I want at the moment.
I’m not happy.
I hate my friends.
I hate my life.
I hate my grades.
He drives.
I’m bored of driving.
I have a white handbag.

I love dancing.
I go clubbing every week.
Shopping is bullshit.
I have a tatoo of a star.
I got my navel pierced.
I have friends that take drugs.
90% of my friends smoke.
I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up was rather nasty.
I'm studying fashion.
I have a business running.

I hate cartoons.

I hate someone.
I have 10 Guess handbags.
I buy CLEO every month.

My parents don't know about my blog.

I have an iPod.
I don’t have faith in the current “one”.

My school mates know about my blog.
I wanted to be a fashion designer.
I love rock emo bands.

I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.
I’m a rebel.
I’m starting to like wearing dresses.

I don’t believe in love.
High school's filled with drama.
My parents have faith in me.
I’ve bought shoes this month.
A blogger bitched about me before.
I hate sports.

I heart Italian food.
I hate meeting new people.
I hate nail polish.
The mother bear gives me hugs.
People should start appreciating me.
High school was the worst time of my life.
I have red hair.

One Utama is my second home.
I’m a guy.
I’m scared of my Biology exam.
I hate vacations.
We’ll last.

I believe in long distance relationships.
I’m going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.
I’ve robbed an old lady.
I’m starting to like applying make-up.
I was a tomboy.
At times I think I still am a tomboy.
I love bitching about people behind their backs.

I still have a best friend.
I have a cat.
I hate surprise parties.
I hate planning parties.
I’m hot.
I’m a sinner.
I’ve got a DS light.
I have a Wii.
I can live without music.
Video games are a waste of time.
I miss the father bear.
I love being in love.

I know how to cook.

I have 100% freedom.
Boys are assholes.
I hate Math.

I love horror films.

I’m happy with what I have.
I slept in my parents’ room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.

My old friends keep in touch with me.
I don’t read newspapers.
The news is such a waste of time.
Blogging is a waste of time.
I hate animals.
I can’t live without make-up.
I curse like a pirate.
I’m happy with my 11 year old car.
I hate people that are smart.
I love Apple Juice.
I can’t drink for nuts.
I believe that everyone in their teens have lost their virginity.

I’ve got a new phone.

I’m going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.

I love swimming.
I haven’t worked out since March.

I think I’m fat.

I love my friends and family

Stab

1. hann jian

2. benji

3.xiao yan

4. pei ming

5. xiong wei

Benji's Tagged

1. Who are you?
A girl who love hyper places? XD

2. Who is more important to you?
My family......

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
hmmm.................... 3 months once?

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
No...

5. How many babies you want?
I dont think so far..... XD

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes, i always believe

7. What is your goal for this year?
Errr.............. A handphone?

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
No.....

9. What's a perfect boyfriend like to you?
Rich, Good Looking, Loyal, Protect Me ETC

10. What feeling do you love most?
Hyper.....

11. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
Dont Know?

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people you hate ?
I HATE YOU!

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
No, i always play.... XD

14. What does flying means to you- In a plane?
Dont Know?

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
Errr???

16. Who's hotter?Chace Crawford or Kevin Peake?
I Dont Know?

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
Friendly, Nice, Love Chocolates? ETC

18. What have you done to yourself to make yourself happy?
Errrrr................... fell for a good guy who will protect me?

19. If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
Primary School......

20. What are your fear(s)?
When my mum nag at me.....
When my friends piss at me.....
When the boy i like reject me.....
When my boyfriend decide to break up with me... ( but i know its ridiculous XD )

AND OTHER TAG :Rules and Regulations:
1. . Each player writes a little blog of 15 weird or little known facts about yourself.
2. People who gets tagged needs to state the rule clearly before hand.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to tag and write their names down.
4. No Tags back!!!!

Im suann
I love to hyper
I easily cry
I easily blush?
I need my friends to comfort me whenever i cry
Im addicted to computer
I love cold stuff... example : ice-cream, cold coke, cold water ETC
I hate ppl calling me BITCH
I hate ppl who steal everything away from me
I hate pervert boys/girls
I hate ppl who discuss something that involve with sexual with me....
I dont really like my family
I always Kap Zai?
I love to eat ICES
I hate being alone in the dark

Peoples who i wanna tag ~
1. Siwei
2. Hann Jian
3. Madeleine
4. Lerynne
5. Pei Ming
6. Xiao Yan
7. Xiong Wei
8. Yan Er
9. Der Cherng
10. Michelle


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Perish In The Name Of Love

Im kinda piss today though

I went to 1u

Cant do anything there and could just walk around

Kap Zai? I dont think so?

I told my mum i wanna buy a handphone

Im already 13 years old....

Couldnt i just have my own phone and privacy?

Always use her handphone then kena scolded by NOTHING~~~

Dont you think its too mean to me?

I always wish to have my own handphone....

My elder sister always buy phone

My mum just nag at her sometimes........

Im the worst

I always kena nag by mum.....

Sometimes, when my elder sister kena scold, she will pull me down in the water again.....

Im just a problem child to her after all

I know she wish she didnt give birth me.....

I know everything of what she's thinking when i saw her face!

How i wish i could just go oversea to study so i couldnt always kena she scold until so cham

When we're having dinner with my cousins........

She asked my elder sisters and she didnt even ask what i wanna eat

Then when my elder sister ask me what i wanna eat

My mum just answer her ' aiya, she dont feel like eating wan la.... '

She dont even know me well

She dont know what i wanna eat

She dont know what is my favourites

She always says she's a good mother

She tot she fetched us to skul and scolded us is a mother who shud do that

Actually, she's totally out the topics......

Being a mother, you shud be like hor ma - Moonlight Resonance

Understand what their children want

Know well their children

When their children cries, know how to comfort them

Whenever their children made mistakes, just advice them but not using scold

Scold couldnt help the children

Even hit the children couldnt help either

But my mum was totally diff

When i cry, she couldnt comfort me

She will scold me more and more and more

Is this what a mother shud do?

Im not complaining about her

Im just too dissapointed in her

Okie, im very thankful that whenever i wanna go out, she didnt force me not to go

At least i have a mother like HER

Im very thankful to the god that my mum is a open minded women

Maybe to others, she's not totally the best in the world

But to me, i couldnt comment about this.........

My mum always bought stuffs for my 2 sisters but not for me

Its hurt me so much

She even said im a ugly girl

Being a mother, if she knows her daughter is ugly, she shud at least support her but not insult her...

Look at hor ma - Moonlight Resonance

Ah Wing - Moonlight Resonance ( Fala Chen ) is a girl who couldnt speak, hor ma didnt even insult her.... i know hor ma is supporting her whenever ah wing needs her.....

Whenever i need my mum, she just couldnt comfort me....

I will have to find my friends and tell then my problem.........

I just couldnt believe that she insulted me......

She always said im ugly and said my 2 sisters are very pretty....

What the hell is this man?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!

I dont even wanna continue blogging about this.....

She dont know how much i hurted and she dont know im force to hide my tears behind her so she couldnt see that im crying T.T

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Shocked?

Uh huh?

Today was a great day for me.... ( i guess so? )


I went to Red Box with cecilia, lerynne and siwei......


But too bad, xiaoyan didnt came.....

I guess she have something to do and cant make it........

And when i was having dinner at subang......

Guess who i met?

Kylthur~~~~~ ( One of my classmates )

This is how BESTIES took their pictures in Dream World

→

Fate?

Hmmm.............

How should i start first?

Xiaoyan was actually talking about her bf's stuff

And i dont know how it turn to her bf's best friend

I know his name but please dont ask me to say it out XD

Xiaoyan told that he is kinda handsome, spiky hair, was a gangster, loyal to his relationship and bla bla bla

Well, can i say im kinda interested in him but im not gonna let one of my best friend knows about that =P

I wanna know who is that person

And the most unbelievable thing is.......

HIS EX-GF WAS ACTUALLY A

MALAY GIRL!!!!!!!!

Could you believe that?

I mean he was a chinese....

How will he likes a malay girl???

Its weird.....

And he was very loyal to THAT malay girl.....

But at the end, the malay girl betrayed him......

It will be very hurt..... T.T

Test finally over....

Its great!

I can relax now....

Muahahahahahahaha~~

Well, so much for today XD

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