5th day without him.............................

Today is the 5th day without him, still the same....... Although i say i feel hapi for him cuz i know who his true love is........... But im still sad.......... T.T His pm really make me feel like slaping him or kill him...............

Tagged by Peiming

1. What is the show you hope to watch now?
Moonlight Resonance - Ka Hou Yuet Yuen

2. Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have?
like i know..............

3. What do you think of your brother(s)/sister(s)?
awesome?

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Japan and South Korea

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Be a famous singer..................

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
of cuz i do........

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
My family, My friends and HIM........ but i already lose HIM.................. * sigh * T.T

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
ermm............. travelling the whole world....................

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him?
Its useless........................ * sigh * T.T

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
i dont know.......................

11. Do you believe in “forever”?
nope...............

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
Liar........................................... Playboy..............................

13. What is your ambition?
Be a famous singer..........................

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you?
me?????????????????????? lame question..........................

15. What do you think is the most important in your life?
HIM...........................................

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Im not.......... I seldom hang out with friends or go shopping with my friends...... =)

17. What is the thing that you really want now?
HIM........................................ but i will never get HIM foreva.....................

18. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
i dont know.........................

19. Is there anything that you have done which you regret?
Yea.........................

20. Are you hungry right now?
Nope............................

Next person to tag ~
~ siwei
~ xiaoyan

4th day without him.....................

Today is the 4th without him......... Yesterday night, i chat with his best friend........ His best friend told me that he wanna love **** and he dont wanna forget ****............. Although its really hurt me very badly but i still the same........ Every night cry......... because too hurt liao..... and i cant stand........... so i juz cry............. i think maybe i need 1 year to forget him or maybe 6 months or maybe 1 week or maybe 3 weeks.............. and maybe we two not match aso......... haiz........ i have to face the fact n yet......... nobody accompany me......... haiz............. I feel lonely but i have friends =P So, i wont find any partner......... i think i will juz be a lesbian...... lolz........ jkjk.......... =D after sometime, i will be back the hapi girl again........ =)

To my best friends ~
siwei
xiaoyan
cecilia
peiming
le-rynne

You guys no need to worry about me, im kinda okay now........ give me some times, i promise i will be back the happy girl again............. =D...............

3rd day without him...................

I will forgive you ( a girl ), i will................ cuz God is always watching at you......... What you did..... Where you go......... The every step u do or think, God will know.................. U will get it from God after u dead.......................... So, i wont angry you or hate you......... Cuz i know hate a person is very suffer......... and its not good for ur health......... U might get cancer too......... So, its not worth it.......... =) But i will accept the one u like.......... I dont care............... Its wad u deserve it............... I WARN you, dont even make me hate you like hell.......... If not, i will do something that will hurt u very badly................ Today is the 3rd day without him, i really miss him........... haizz......... i really really like him and miss him very much............... * sigh * Eventhough im trying to forget him, yesterday he chat with me...... he call me not to forget him......... i dont know wad he want from me.................... anyway, im tired...........

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2nd day without him..........................

Today is the 2nd day without him, I dont feel better............. Same like yesterday........ * sigh * Eventhough peiming and xiaoyan keep on making me laugh but i still sad.......... dont know y, after heart broken...... i feel more tired and sleep quite early......... last time i slept 3 something in the midnight but now, i sleep 12 something in the midnight........... haiz........ and i even lose my weight......... i lose 1 kg............... but i eat alot in school........ siwei, le-rynne, xiaoyan and cecilia know i eat alot...... but i still lose weight....... I think i need to eat more =P..... anyway, i will still try to forget about him and study..... study is most important things to me now........ but stil cant concentrate......... siwei say if i wanna cry, please cry as loud as i can...... i really wanna cry but i ( ku bu chu ).......... But sometime when i sleep, i will cry......... I really cannot cry out loudly, i rather keep it in my heart eventhough its xinku......... haiz............... I really very tired........ and he seldom online too.............. maybe its good for me, so that i wont chat with him.......... =) siwei told me that i guess i muz zhufu him and his lover and hope he happy foreva........ i can do it........ but siwei call me to be ready, cuz its xinku and painful................ I know, and i will try my best too......... i will zhufu him and hope he hapi........... =) so, i hope he will be happy foreva...........

To People Who Reading My Blog ~
I know my blog is lame......... All aso write about him.......... If u wanna know who is the HIM, add me in msn or ask me in my cbox........ i will answer u........ =) So, if u think my blog is lame, please dont come here anymore......... cuz i need sometimes to forget about him and i will continue write anything about him ad my feelings here until i TOTALLY forget him..............

1st day without him...................

After blocking him, i didnt feel better..... I feel more worst than before...... But i have to do that......... If not, i will feel more xinku............. I cant tahan anymore......... sometimes, i will unblock him...... and then block him again..... Siwei say he still like me..... But i really cant accept his heart have ****........... Today is the 1st day without chating with him......... I really feel very deppress........... Even i laugh in school, but my heart still hurt......... I really dont know wad to do........ I need to be busy only wont think of him.... If i free or nothing to do, i will think of him.... But i always force myself not to think of him.......... N this problem really affect my studies..... I always write his name in my text book...... sejarah text book, geografi text book ETC........... Why the god have to play me out? Today is rainy day, feel not good at all................ * sigh * I will stop this if i totally forget about him........ i still dont have the yong qi to chat or talk to him............. If i let him go, i will feel xinku........ If i dont let him go, i will xinku too...... T.T..... God, please make me forget about him as fast as you can......... He only know how to say sry for hurting u.... i dont want to accept his apologize......... I bad mood so i ponteng ICTL class.......... haiz..... I hope the teacher wont write any letters to my parents...... But i dont care anymore...... Even my parents scold or beat me, i wont feel the pain...... Cuz nothing can be more painful than losing the one u loves........ I decide, i will try my best to laugh or smile in front of my friends, and try to forget about him....................... Nobody can help me to escape pain feelings...... I wont let my friends worry about me................ God, please........ please......... please........ Let me forget him..... Please, i beg you........ i want this painful feelings to dissapear......... I dont want this feelings to come back anymore........... i dont wan to couple anymore......... I dont want to like anyone anymore.......... I will erase the name in my text book after i forget him........ But bao jeff and kreeshvwar keep on teasin me and mention his name in front of me, make me really wanna cry...... If now, let me hear his name...... My tears will roll down itself.............. Please...... Please...... god, leave me alone........ Dont play the fool with me................... PLEASE, I BEG YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You can see this if you wan.........................

I really give up on u............. Im real this time......... What ur pm say, it adi give me an answer..... Thats it............. I wont annoy u or love u anymore............... Today, actually im still hyper........ But after i on9..... i totally dont have the mood to chat with u so i block u..... But this wont affect my studies.............. The only thing i can do for you is to forget you, please always be hapi.............. Hope you find your true love.... =) And im still ur mui.................... so dont worry about me........ Im okay............

Allow me to say this one last time to u ~
I LOVE YOU......................................

Goodbye........................ =)

School Dayzz

Diuuuuu................ Kena scolded by Puan Wong.............. Denggggggggg......................... Damn gao dulan larhhhh............. I didnt tear my book, she say i tear my book.............. damn fucker larhhhhh.................... Arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........................................... Nothing to say........... Juz feel piss off................................. haiz

Heart Broken ~~~~ =(

I can say that i totally down when i saw his blog....................... He say he damn happy that she replied him .......... Ermm......... maybe its good for him...... Eventhough i dont like it, but i still have to use to it ( i think? ) What can i do........ haiz * sigh * I really wanna know what do he think......... GRRRRRRRRRRRRR.............. Damn hurt me ................ So what???? I can only wait for him, i think? I really feel very sad, sad until i dont feel like talking or do anything...... Juz feel like crying......... Y he do this to me? I think maybe this will be the last time i fell for someone..... I always say that, but at last i still in love with someone...... But this time is real..... I heart broken so wad? Nobody even care for me........ What can my best friends do? Just know how to comfort me.... What can my sisters do? They dont even know anything..... What can HE do? Make me feel more down n sad...... What can everyone do for me???????? NOTHING I really dont know wan to say wad.......... I think i wont have the mood to study............................ DAMN FUCKING SAD NOW LA............ MADE......... ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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Tagged by Siwei

1) What curse do you use?

~ Ermm........ die??

2) What are you listening to now?

~ Kamikaze Rak Chan Riak Waa-ter

3) Who is the person you talk most to?

~ Xiong Wei and Jezzey

4) What time is my alarm clock set?

~ 8.00.a.m

5) Do you wear flipflops when it's cold?

~ Nope....................

6) Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?

~ Take the picture..................

7) What was the last movie you watched?

~ Haunted School

8) Do any of your friends have children?

~ Nope...............................

9) Has anyone called you lazy?

~ Of cuz la.................................

10) Do you ever take medication to make you fall asleep?

~ No way...................

11) What CD is in your CD player?

~ Ermm............... korean song ( i think )

12) Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?

~ I prefer Dutch Lady Full Cream milk...................

13) Has anyone told you a secret this week?

~ Ermm............. i dont think so...............

14) When was the last time you went to Starbucks?

~ Before last week, Genting Highlands..............................

15) Can you whistle?

~ I dont like........ cuz its annoying................

16) Do you think people talk about you behind your back?

~ Everyone does.........................

17) Did you watch cartoons as a child?

~ Yesh............... XP

18) What movie do you know every line to?

~ Like i know..................................

19) Do you own any brand T-shirts?

~ Yes?

20) Is anyone in love with you?

~ Of cuz NO......................................

21) Do you do your own dishes?

~ Sometimes..........................

22) Ever cry in public?

~ Many times..... swt.......... ( Im not a CRYBABY )

23) Are you on a desktop computer or a laptop?

~ Desktop

24) Are you wanting any piercings or tattoos?

~ Piercings ~ yes......... Tattoos ~ No way man.........................

25) What's the weather like?

~ A weather good for swimming..... =)

26) Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos?

~ No way...................................

27) What did you do before this?

~ I dont know..............................

28) When was the last time you slept on the couch?

~ Dont Know......................................

29) How many hours of sleep do you need to function properly?

~ Ermm.................... 24 hours XD

30) Do you eat breakfast daily?

~ Nope..................................

31) Are your days full and fast-paced?

~ Ermm............................... no or yes........ i dont know XD

32) Do you pay attention to the calories you eat in food?

~ No?

33) Do you use sarcasm?

~ I wonder if im sarcastic...............................

34) Are you picky about spelling and grammar?

~ I dont think so.............................

35) Have you been to Six Flags?

~ Where the hell is six flags???????????

36) Do you get along with the same sex or the opposite sex?

~ Same sex, of cuz................................

37) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

~ Currently, nope............. =)

38) Do you sleep on your side or back?

~ Side, i think?

39) Do you watch the news?

~ Nope........ not interested in news =)

40) One of your scars, how did you get it?

~ From a boy in my 6U class.............

41) Who was the last person to make you cry?

~ Hann Jian.................. =(

42) How's the survey?

~ Great????????

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Yaner
Xiaoyan
Le-rynne
Peiming

Tagged by Hann Jian =)

Instructions:Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
~ How i know!!!

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
~ Singing and Dancing

3. If you have a close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend?
~ ermm..... i will still be friends with him/her...........

4. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat ?
~ I think its ridiculous..................

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
~ I hope to be a famous singer...............

6. Do you believe you can survive without money??
~ Ermm.............. I think so..............

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
~ My family and my friends.........

8. What do you feel like doing, right now?
~ Watch Moonlight Resonance~~~~~ =)

9. If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
~ Ermm......................... I have but i think i wont confess to him cuz its useless................

10. Do you believe in fate ?
~ I believe in fate.............................

11. Who Is The One You Love ??
~ i think i dont have the reason to answer this question........................

12. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
~ ermm................ nothing.......................

13. What is your ambition?
~ Be a singer.........................

14. Is anyone really perfect?
~ Like i know

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick ?
~ I wan to be happy...................

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
~ I dont know

17. Friends or your boyfriend/girlfriend is more important?
~ Of cuz friends la, but currently, i dont have bf.............................

18. Where do you think is the best place to get married?
~ How i know........... I wont think so far la...............

19. If the Earth were to end one day, what would you do for the last 24 hours?
~ Ermm..................... I dont know

20. What would life be without friends?
~ Ermm.............. sucks????

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~ siwei
~ yan er
~ le-rynne
~ xiao yan
~ pei ming

To someone i really like

If u ask me wad i wan.......... U know wad i wan??? i wan ur heart, i wan u to love me, i wan u to forget her, i wan u to care abt me, i wan u to jealous if any boys come near me, but u wont do that........... U rather do that to her, right??? I dont wan ur hug, kiss or presents......... I juz wan ur love.............. XY told me u dont like her anymore..... is that real??? its hard for u to forget her......... I really like u, u told me u like me too......... But u dont even prove or show to me u like me.............. All the boys is like that one, say wan to prove, at the end??? piece of shit............. Think, wad can u do for me????

Fun Dayz

Today damn siao, xiongwei, der cherng, jezzey, siwei, cecilia n me went to badminton court. Then XW, DC n jez keep on making me laugh cuz they too funny n lame. espeacially jez, he keep on imitating ppl play badminton, n he play badminton damn silly. Make me wanna laugh. DC badminton skill damn good, i cant win him, haiz!!! anyway, he nvr go. i invited him liao, he still nvr come. haiz. he say he tuition aso nvr go. haiz........... he fong fei kei........ Cecilia somemore say adriel not good enough, my one more useless than cecilia wan la. DC ask me, did he give me any presents or hug me or.................................. I said Nope..... DC say he is useless. n i think he is useless too. only know how to call me *******, dont know how to show me he really like me. What can he do for me? Hurt me? Eventhough he is handsome, so what???? I dont give a damn la.......... Even he cant forget ****, do he have to treat me like this??? Fine, i can say that he treat me very good, but good for wad??? He nvr even give me anything, not even his love........... Maybe u could say im a cheap girl, cuz i wan his love........ But remember, im a girl too. I need someone to love me too........ Every girl have their own bf to love........ maybe their bf love them too.... although he is not my bf........ What else can i do for him???? haizzzzz!!!! anyway, i damn hyper today! i mean in badminton court la! =) so i wont sad or cry bcz of him...Smiling is one of the greatest thing you can ever do to a person,so smile while you still can

What Is Love?

What is love? Is love that fun? Love can make ppl die! Love can make ppl cry! Love can make ppl happy! What can love do? Be with the boy u like? But what if the boy dont like u? What if the boy cant forget the girl that they loved? What if the boy just cheating on u?What if ...................................... Do you guys think these question before u fell for someone? Do u? I rather want money. at least money can make u hapi too. Money wont betray u. It wont cheat u. u can do anything u wan when u have plenty of money. But money cant buy love. Love is a natural thingy ( i think? )! Love cant be force! Maybe im still young, so i dont know what is love!! But remember, Love can make u suffer like hell!!!! Dont even fell for someone. You will regret if u fell for someone. So, better choose money!!!! =) Love is useless. U will just get married and give birth, so what????????? Is that fun? I dont think so man. espeacially for girls, dont even trust boys words. their words cant be trust. always believe in yourself...........