#171 - What Is Promises?

Why couldnt ppl always keep their promises?

They always lied, broke their promises and made me really disappointed.

Im really disappointed in the ppl who gave birth to me but doesnt care about how i felt these 14 years.

Its like they gave birth to me by forced.

Its like they didnt actually want to give birth to me but they have to because she's pregnant?

How am I gonna feel the happiness in this family without them knowing me well?

Cant they at least said " Su-Ann, you looked down today. You ok? "

If they did asked me, I swear I'll definitely tell them everything.

And guess what?

Whenever Im cried, my 2 freaking sisters just asked me " why so stupid cry? "

Oh my gosh! You actually called this ' concernation '?

I dont think so.

You promised me to take me go swimming, and i trusted you.

But in the end, you just said something that was really unbelivable.

" No need go swimming d la. Go jogging la. "

I know why you told me this.

Because you're lazy. You didnt want to take me.

I know you've always washed our clothes, shoes, everything.

But that doesnt mean you know us well.

You always said you're so pityful because your children doesnt understand you.

But did you ever tried to even understand them?

You did not. You always said Im lucky enough to be in this family.

Do you think so?

I dont think so.

Because Im really unhappy with all of you.

I want my family at least know what I want, what I dont want, what I need but not scold me for NOTHING.

Oh ya, they scolded me for my results.

I did improved, didnt I?

You all just wanted to see A A A, as long its an A, you guys are satisfy?

What about B and C?

Is B and C so poor? I believe its average.

You've never done something Im happy with.

Sometimes, I felt so left out.

My 2 sisters are so pretty and Im just like an ugly duckling who doesnt belongs to that family.

My 2 sisters got EVERYTHING they want.

My mum tried so hard to make them look perfect but she didnt did that on me.

Am I not worth for them to love me?

If its like this, why did they give birth to me?

You all didnt see that ' hard-working ' me, but you guys saw the ' lazy-playful ' me.

What's all this?

I dont think I even deserve to be in that family.

D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T is really a word.

At one point in your life you either have the thing you want or the reasons why you don't