Keep My Secret Just For Him

After 1 week school-ing
I finally found my target but it doesnt matter to me anymore
He still dont know i have a crush on him although i gave him soooo many clue
Lerynne and Jit Haw said i fall for the wrong person
Maybe i did
I actually confess to him but at last
I lied to him said i was just praticing cause i wanna confess to the BOY i like
He said he likes me as a friend
I told him i like him as a friend too T.T
I didnt wanna lie but i have to
I cant let him know about this
He will defintely ignore me if i really did confess to him
And he said he wont be couple on 2009
I dont really care if he wanna couple or dont wanna couple anymore
After all, its none of my business anymore right?
So, why do i care so much?
I promise everyone i wont hurt myself anymore but at the end
I still break my promise
Actually, i knew that this will happen cause i know i dont have a chance
Im so fucking stubborn and stupid
I know that i will get hurt but i still wanna like him
Isnt it a fool?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!
I WILL TRY NOT TO TALK TO HIM AND GIVE UP ON HIM!!!